To: Elephant

Dear elephant in the room

I AM SO DONE WITH YOU

I'M SO DONE WITH HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL.

The sad thing that you do, you know.

The shame, guilt, and despair, it's so unfair

I'm here again breaking away from my true self, thanks to you.

I let you control me once or twice

I'm in so deep its consuming me alive

Nothing lately seems quite right

I question every little thing I do to the point i think about the many people around me too

and whether they ask themselves the question " trick who are you? "

Oh Elephant in the room

Why should you do this to me again

Second guessing my abilities and allowing me to blame it all on you.

I realized you're trying so hard to make me feel dead inside

You want to uproot the evils and ugly of my life, even the smallest of my lies

And message it to your friends then tell a story about me that should not dare to be said 'cause you know its a lie too

But once again I LET YOU have me wonder about you and contemplate what I ALLOWED you

to put me through

To the point now i am lying in my bed blaming myself yet again to feel

that pain you wanted me to cry

But i won't let you see my die, I will start looking to the bright side

I should be thankful that I am alive.

Like Maya said, Still I rise

My consciousness growing aware

Combing through the bounce in my hair

Natural girls transforming a bountiful high

I am defined oh so beautiful, capable, and fine

I'm at my point to forgive, burning every bridge

grasping hold to the happiness held in my life

But who am I without you?

I stepped out my comfort zone with help by you

I'm no longer curious about you, your relationships, journey, hello's nor goodbye's

I guess i should give you a 'thank you' for guidance in my life

But now i am not caring about you

No longer looking out for you

There is no hatred, jealousy, burdens, or nonchalant smiles

So goodbye elephant in the room.

I'm doing quite great, i wish the best for you

I'm not consumed about whether you are thinking ME over YOU

I know I was late figuring out me because i let you have me battle for every wish you wanted to come true.

so dear elephant in the room,

my thoughts don't revolve around you

I don't care about what he said or she said

I don't even recognize you

I'm just glad I survived

As always, BE TRUE, STAY YOU & I'M GOING TO KEEPITSANDRIZZY